As many of you know, I began running about two and a half months ago. I was unhappy with my life at the beginning; sleeping too much at various times throughout the day and still feeling tired, eating unhealthy meals, drinking too much, constantly gaining weight, all while suffering from an extreme anxiety disorder.
In this short time span, I have literally defeated all of the above.
I am 26 years old…too young for anything listed above. After my first real panic attack, I finally agreed to see a psychologist. I was scared, but I wasn’t alone. Once I was able to recognize the choices I was making were disabling me from living my life, I was ready to make the change.
I am the reason I am sitting here writing about this, but I couldn’t have done it alone. My friends, my family, my psychologist, my doctor, and myself created the perfect potion for success. I was relieved when Amy approached me with this idea for our Capstone project. It was a sense of empowerment and essentially a kick in the ass. It gave me motivation to want to live a better life. Writing about it kept me going. It was a way to release all of the thoughts in my head, and it also gave me something to look back on.
This was more than a lifestyle change, this was a journey. A documented journey that I will always have to look back on, if I’m ever feeling down again. And today, I feel better than ever.
Meditation was something my psychologist and I had discussed. I have done some research on it, and thought there’s no way, with my panic level, that I could possibly sit still and not think of anything. Until I began to research active meditation. Then I put two and two together, Running is my meditation. It helps me clear my mind, keeps me focused on positive, and releases natural chemicals in my brain that remind me how beautiful life is.
I now “meditate” for at least 1 mile per day. It doesn’t take too much time out of my busy schedule, but still allows for me to release built up energy and clear my thoughts. I am able to relax again. I actually feel like myself again. Honestly, I feel like a better version of myself today than I ever have.
I am capable of crying again, which sounds silly but it’s very frustrating when you’re sad and you can’t cry. It’s an outlet that is healthy. If you don’t believe me, check out this article.
Running has helped me tremendously; from weight loss and toning, to stress relief, to something to talk about other than the same old banter. It is something new, and it is something great. I stumbled upon an article that helped me put things in perspective, it highlights 6 Benefits of Running At Least 5 Minutes Per Day . Check it out!
Stay Motivated Beautiful People!